This evening, i would like to thank Sanctus Real for their incredible good lyrical writing abilities.
Reflect on this: “If weakness is a wound, that no one wants to speak of, then cool is just how far we have to fall.”
stop…read it again. think about it. it took me the 37th time listening to this to fully grasp it.
i’ll go on: “…i am not immune, i only want to be loved. but i feel safe behind the firewall. can i lose my need to impress? if you want the truth, i must confess…”
“I’m not alright, i’m broken inside. broken inside. All i go through, leads me to you. leads me to you.”
again…think about it. when will you be willing to admit that? when will you see that what your going through might be leading you back to God? when?
“Burn away the pride. Bring me to my weakness. Until everything I hide behind is gone. And when I’m open wide with nothing left to cling to, only you are there to lead me on….Honestly, I’m not that strong…I’m not alright…”
-Sanctus Real I’m not Alright
Seriously, if you get this, really get this, i feel like you can’t leave the same. you can never utter the words burn away the pride and bring me to my weakness and still be the same person on the other end.
Lord, i cry out to you tonight. For whatever reason that brokenness and depression have found me, allow me to have nothing left to cling to. that i fully recognize you are the only one to lead me on. I ask so much of other people to stop caring what others think, to let go, to drop a desire for approval. It has to start with me. Burn away my desire for acceptance. Because what does it matter if the whole world likes me but i forgot to serve you? let “cool” be the amount i have to fall. Let brokenness settle. let me admit the times i’m not alright and not let my pride get in the way. Let my only hiding place be you and you alone. I’m not that strong God, i never have been. Make your scripture real where you are strong through my weakness. Don’t let me be the same. Don’t let a day go by and allow me to stay stagnant. For all of this will lead me to you. it always does. Amen.
